dreams about u dad.......

I need the light , keep me warm.... wonder if your in the rain so windy remember i am ur one and only love u true, visiting me in the night, i see u , dream on.... on your own, in the blue skies.. on my mind.. fields of golden light.. true. i got some news, new questions...just a few... but wait its just a muse~ the way i think. wonder about questions,sometimes.but it's a simple flirtation with the human flight. questions/ no answers, it simply doesn;t matter. the answers r inside inside the light....... everything is alright. you are my sunshine like u used to sing to me in madrid on your banjo so tiny i was my memories not so tiny as big as the stary sky i know forever after,,,,

Windhand

misery ...such a human thing

Happy Birthday to the Count

“Take chances, make mistakes. That's how you grow. Pain nourishes your courage. You have to fail in order to practice being brave.” ― Mary Tyler Moore

Happy Hallow's Eve

Fighting Ghosts of the Mind

A.R.T. The Changeling....

ROSARY CEMETERY

AjnÅ

Happy Birthday Daddy

Miss you Dad.

Gene Wilder... the real deal . R I P darling man.

It's only with the heart that one can see clearly.
What;s essential is invisible to the eye.

This month was spent with my Dad.

Until I grew into a teenager~
Spending the month of August with Dad
was always priority.
Little did you know Dad .... what took the place of our
special summer time
was clubbing, music, drugs & boys.

The weight of that summer of 1986
was an adventure into the dark forest of experimentation
mind numbing &  running from realities......
Trying to catch the tail of  thaT Uncertain something.....
SEEMINGLY never quite attainable.

Looking back,
August with dad was sacred,  pleasent & forever
enlightening.
Dad,
How could you ever know
we never spoke about it.

KIDON BAUMAN

I met you roller skating downtown
near Washington Square Park.
Greenwhich Skate
it was in a basement
the tiniest roller skating rink of all time.
Dad would bring us there
maybe because it was right down the road
from the PUBLIC THEATER
anyway , Kidon asked me to skate,
the slow skate
where you skate as couples :backwards!!!

I noticed the skate rink was kinda empty
found out everyone was at the ROXY
up on 18th street.

The first time I arrived,
I walked in and up the ramp

the place was a Massive Cathedral
compaired to Greenwhich skate!
and Of course
the first person I saw was
KIDON
he had wings around his ankles (on his skates)

he was an angel.
He skated like that too
floating on air

there was a group of them
Khalil , little Jordan and his Best friend Anthony
and Anthony's sister Michelle and her best friend Pam.
There were older kids that I looked up to
admired, wanted to be like them
Super cool.

Kidon always skated with me on the slow songs
the "couple skate"....
I was eventually invited to his home
on 144 east 84th st.

His mom , Bonnie, was very special to me
and she had a baby boy named Beau
that Kidon was teaching how to speak spanish.

In kidon's room there was a twin bed with posters of the stars
and universe.
He taught me about numerology and constellations.

Kidon confirmed in me
 the very spirit that
he was,
 that he owned,
 that he is today to me.

Even if he does not physically take up "space" here
I know Kidon is around.

He visits me thru the numbers.
his number was 5
and he showed me that my number was 4.
That number follows me everywhere~ever since.

I was sure we would marry one day.

On August 2, 1984 ,
after Kidon battled and defeated cancer of the spleen,
for some reason it was time for him to go from this earth.

I was with my dad in Cambridge, Mass.
When early one morning aug.4 ~ the phone rang and woke us up.
It was Kidon;s grandma, calling to tell me the tragic news.
devastated.

I felt very special that they found me and told me.

My father passed this past November,out of left field.
No words could ever express the weight that loss tolls.
They are always close by....

i used to play the trumbone wish I would make the time to learn the bass YEH

Hugin & Munin....

Hugin and Munin (pronounced “HOO-gin” and “MOO-nin”; Old Norse Huginn, “Thought” and Muninn, “Desire”) are two ravens in Norse mythology who are shamanic helping spirits of the god Odin. The Eddicpoem Grímnismál describes them thus, from the perspective of Odin:
                         

Hugin and Munin
Fly every day
Over all the world;
I worry for Hugin
That he might not return,
But I worry more for Munin.[1]

These informants are two of the many sources of Odin’s prodigious wisdom.

Hugin and Munin are semi-autonomous beings who are simultaneously projections or extensions of Odin’s own being. This may sound unusual, but Old Norse literature is rife with just this sort of phenomena. (See Shamanismand The Parts of the Self.) It’s difficult to determine exactly which parts of Odin they correspond to, however. Most helping spirits in animal form are fylgjur, “followers,” attendants who can tell a person with second sight much about the character of the spirit’s owner. However, their names are derived from hugr, “thought,” and munr, “desire,” both of which are distinct parts of the self in their own right. Perhaps they’re avian manifestations of Odin’s hugr and munr, or perhaps they’re fylgjur with the attributes of those other mental faculties. Unfortunately, as fragmentary as the sources for our knowledge of the pre-Christian traditions of the Norse and other Germanic peoples are, that’s just about all we know about Hugin and Munin.



                          

(Note: it’s often claimed that Munin’s name means “Memory,” but for this to be so, it would have to be derived from minni, “memory,” rather than munr, “desire.” The latter, however, is by far the more parsimonious derivation; if the former were the case, we should expect Munin’s Old Norse name to have been something like “Minninn” rather than “Muninn.” Moreover, the above verse from the Grímnismál makes much more sense if Munin’s name means “Desire” rather than “Memory” – for Odin to state that he’s worried about losing his memory in a poem where he recites, in brilliant poetic form, a remarkably systematic description of the entire cosmos in considerable detail would be highly ironic, to say the least.)

THE CLINTONS ARE ABOVE THE LAW AND CRIMINAL MASTER LIARS.........

U.S. Code › Title 18 › Part I › Chapter 93 › § 1924
18 U.S. Code § 1924 - Unauthorized removal and retention of classified documents or material



Current through Pub. L. 114-38. (See Public Laws for the current Congress.)

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Whoever, being an officer, employee, contractor, or consultant of the United States, and, by virtue of his office, employment, position, or contract, becomes possessed of documents or materials containing classified information of the United States, knowingly removes such documents or materials without authority and with the intent to retain such documents or materials at an unauthorized location shall be fined under this title or imprisoned for not more than one year, or both.
(b)
For purposes of this section, the provision of documents and materials to the Congress shall not constitute an offense under subsection (a).
(c)
In this section, the term “classified information of the United States” means information originated, owned, or possessed by the United States Government concerning the national defense or foreign relations of the United States that has been determined pursuant to law or Executive order to require protection against unauthorized disclosure in the interests of national security.
(Added Pub. L. 103–359, title VIII, § 808(a), Oct. 14, 1994, 108 Stat. 3453; amended Pub. L. 107–273, div. B, title IV, § 4002(d)(1)(C)(i), Nov. 2, 2002, 116 Stat. 1809.)




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let the water run and
drain
and roll down the streams
the rivers

let it roll passed......

past

into the now

fresh and crystal clear
healing in purity
purity in love
purity in forgiveness
pure authentic spirit


expectations would have one
living in stagnant waters

settled somehow in the unsettled
breading of chemoautotroph


depths uncharted for a reason

let mother natures territories
be left in
its toxic yet
extremely pristine conditions.....

the balance in acceptance

 acceptance
in the knowing
that there is a whole lot of
unknowing

which way the waters run
it all ends up as one
resistance
assistance
however it blends together

we are all

Kitty Whiskahsss R.I.P.

my purrrfect ballerina
so very greatful to have been blessed with your presence
my darling kitty whiskers
i love you always
see you again .......

if you can;t see, does that mean your blind or just in denial.........

The Media has created a circus
to gain ratings
but also to manipulate the masses...
what else is new.
But If you think that your vote counts
your blind.
and if you think you know anything about
ANY of these candidates
go ahead , try to find details...
the details either get blocked or blackened
out on the worldwide web...

Really all you have to do is watch the many ...
 "NEWS"
and try to investigate things
without taking the media;s point of view
as face value
.....

but seriously , the facts do not lie.
The facts, however altered they become,
if one watches in real time,
things slip out just before they get wiped out....
good luck finding that rerun of the interview
with General Petraeus
speaking out about the facts of Benghazi
in real time..... and then somehow that
interview goes "missing" and
he gets slammed over "cheating".....
and the spot light suddenly shifted onto shit that
takes the focus off the facts of Benghazi.


And no matter what kind of world wide web search you type in
the only thing that pops up is CHEATER>crap.
Never mind, the facts about how he was turned into a scapegoat
to take the focus off the true lies of how a
video was used to off AMBASSADOR STEVENS <
wonder what he knew and how it threatened Ms. Clinton's agenda.

Ms.Clinton is completely entangled with these
similar sloppy email transactions as General Petraeus ,
but somehow she seems to GET OFF.
And how are some above the law and others
 are not?
The drama stalls out to increase the
tension, creating mellow drama
 followers indulge.

This presidential race has been staged and
set up with key players being used as bait
to spur
~ mass interest in a presidential process
~racial discourse & unease
~even more division between political parties thus the population
~ and a mass inability to listen to one another's point of views
~division

"They got the "BLACK MAN" president out of the way..."
by the way his mother was a white woman,
In the Jewish world
you could be a Child of Noah
but one will not be "righteously" recognized a
Jew unless the mother was.
And really........
How does god see you
I WANT TO SCREAM TO ALL THE
black people that voted for a a"black man"
& at RABBI"S
or RELIGIOUS FOLK
THAT ALIGN THEMSELVES WITH THIS
ALL KNOWING POWER OF AUTHORITY>>>>>
this pure divided line of who "this Book"
bible, torah, quran.........
decided to label people as.......
and people buy this hook line an sinker
WHY....

Do you know your candidate?
do you ask yourself
what am i willing to look past, in turn, for what
i think i am about to buy into?
do you ask yourself
what am i willing to sign over for what i
really have no ideas about what it stands for....
have you educated yourself on your
American Constitutional Rights?
and the basis for which it stands
and how it;s not just about one but many...


When the FBI can;t place a powerful
authoritative figure into jail/.......
for corruptions like illegal servers,
lies,scandal,corruptive links and setting people up
to get killed for personal gain or protection......

If a simpleton like you or I
or Pertaeus for that matter,
committed  similar acts we'd
be shut up.
And the HEck does
 Al Shaprton evade his taxes yet
 he;s still serving "US"
& he's still gonna collect a pension ,healthcare etc
long after he retires.... what'SUPwithTHAT?!!
IS THAT WHERE OUR TAX $ GOES
TO CORRUPT POLITICIANS LIKE THAT GOOFDOG!!!!!

How many members of congress are really serving themselves?
I vote for limited terms
no lifetime governmental handouts
I vote for transparency
And when I have to do taxes and show all my going's on
I'd love to see the governmental break down
of where Our taxes are going.....

The transparency and the need to hold
governmental officials
accountable for the facts on the table.....

Alot of people have ideas, hopes and faith
in Politicians no matter what their actions
or words.....
Just Believe
and look at subliminal messages
like persons that are PLACED behind candidates
when they speak from the podium.....
interesting whom they are trying to bait with
simple folk as the back drop to their speeches.......

AND NOW IT:S THE "WOMAN"S" TURN.......

and OH WHAT A WOMAN SHE IS.....

she stood by her man for her own personal
gains.... atleast that's my thought.
I give her props for the power of forgiveness,
although, I hardly believe her hardshell even lets an
ounce of emotion in (or out for that matter.)
 that;s just my opinion...
but I would like to
embrace my fellow democrats and republicans
either way for freedom of choice.....

I look for a neutral , mature ground
to talk to one another , to speak , to listen
 maybe even be heard for that matter

looking for facts or views
perhaps I didn;t even see before......
so much talking over one another.
the inability to listen because your too busy thinking
about what your response will be
in your own defense,,,,,
are we against being open minded
because we KNOW IT ALL....?
we know nothing.....
we have opinions
with the few facts we are spoon fed....

We have choices,
that are linked to certain facts
we choose to hone in on and make
them the foundation of our beliefs
that transfer into how we see
our needs
being treated with equality and fairness...
in liberty we are guided by trust in
our government to do the right thing.....
by us for us with us leading & voting
for "THEM" the candidates , the politicians
STOP
RECORD SCRATCHES>>>>>>>
that;s not how it seemingly is anymore....

The freedom to choose politically,
spiritually ......
the freedoms to be Muslim
or Jewish weather or not the
mother
bloodline
is involved ......
truth be we are all children of god......
no matter who, what, where, when , & why.......

It is a sin how dirty and hateful
the climate has become.
 Our world on a whole is  becoming polluted.
Politically........
Physically , mentally , spiritually.....
Speaking over won another
WON ANOTHER
ONE ANOTHER

it's chaos
it's a cooperate world that
owns the lobbyists
they owns the Bills
that rewrite the laws
that manipulates the concourse
that dictates the direction
that is no longer the quality
of our nation....

Bernie is already being asked to step
down.
The numbers don;t lie
yet somehow
he met with the President last week....

I would've loved to have been a fly on the wall.........


OBAMA: "Come on Bernie, you know what you gotta do."
BERNIE; " Sir?"
OBAMA; " There's a plan in place and we need you to secede."
BERNIE: " But Mr.President sir that;s not how our constitution was built,
besides the polls show~ I have a slight lead, I;m not throwing in the towel YET,"
OBAMA: "Now listen Bernie, you'll be taken care of .We'll get you in
on some sort of meaningful level : you know like we did for KERRI. Don;t you
worry.Just do the right thing."
BERNIE: " Interesting....  one of my staffers came to me last week and mentioned
something about how the world wide web was altering search facts....making
the more favorable facts appear first for someone named CLINTON. The dirty
laundry isn't so readily available and now your asking me to step down
while the race between she and I is actually tied?!! Where's the democracy in that
Mr. President?"
OBAMA: "I'm just doing my job Bernie. Besides this job being President,
ain;t all what it seems to be,,,, I hardly accompliehd anything on my agenda...
Obama Care wasn;t even my idea,
No hard feelings! Right now , we gotta pal you up with her so the grand plan of things
goes down the way THEY need it to go down. Got it?!"
BERNIE: "Yes sir." inside sigh...bordering tears.

Get ready people.......
Ms. Clinton will win,
not because you voted for her but
because it's set up
and she will aid "the others:"
She plays bothe sides if the coin,
(I go out on a branch here
with my projections...)zefside.....
They, together,
 will bring a World War Around
None like we have ever seen ........

Why ?!!!
I am not sure WHY, I think this way ,but
We should all ponder
WHo;s behind the curtain
running the show?
The front men, the showsmen, the politicians
THEY ARE not the ones running the show....
the ones we vote for...NOPE not them either.....
not a darn thing we can do about any of it
like Nemo caught in the fish net......

one more question,
what;s it all for anyway?
Any of it....
especially when the masses
aren;t even educated with their very own personal rights.....
Some don;t even care to know
and the Wild Wizard behind the Curtain
counts on this type of ignorance....

 All the laws our forefathers
created to run this show with virtue
under god
indivisible
with liberty and
justice for all.........
what;s it all for anyway...... i ask myself,



“Good morning," said the little prince.

Good morning," said the merchant.

This was a merchant who sold pills that had been invented to quench thirst. You need only swallow one pill a week, and you would feel no need for anything to drink.

Why are you selling those?" asked the little prince.

Because they save a tremendous amount of time," said the merchant. "Computations have been made by experts. With these pills, you save fifty-three minutes in every week."
And what do I do with those fifty-three minutes?"

Anything you like..."

As for me," said the little prince to himself, "if I had fifty-three minutes to spend as I liked, I should walk at my leisure toward a spring of fresh water.” 
― Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, The Little Prince

Float Like A ButterflY......

alittle more than a whisper

DEEEEEECÅUNTVerddddddddddd

BLACK SHEEP REJECTS OUTCAST

bottle it up

Music born and raised within it;s waves......

The earliest memories
listening to my dad's music.......
He had this really tight hook up
A Sony cassette deck
with attachable HI FI speakers
all hide "n" tidy in a leather attache case
with a zipper and each speaker had it;s
own home to the left an right of the deck,
The deck had this counter on it too.
Story was he would sit me between
the two speakers :barely two years old:
The Beatles, The Moody Blues.....

And as We grew up,
my step dad had this classic old school radio,
it resided above moms vintage bakers cabinet.
in the kitchen at Westbeth.
Blasting 102.7 WNEW
every morning , everyday all the time.

The classics were embedded in me
wether I knew or not
it was JUST our reality.

My step mom at the time
took me to my first outdoor concert in
the park,
The Ramones. I was 11.
I'll Never forget it,
I was smitten with live music.
Till this day....
now I get to take my kids to see live music.
Hah.....

Postcards from my dad....

Whenever my dad would go on far away trips,
he would always send us postcards.
He always kept in touch!
Since he moved over to the other side in November,
he keeps in touch from there too.
Today my little guy Luke made me watch this you tube video,,,
very resistant I was .....
funny how dad picked his messenger today.
I love you dad.

SØCiÅL MeDÏA = Ånti-SÔÇIÅL BEHAVIØR

Have you ever visited a home
where all the shoes are sitting by
the inside of the door?
Shoes lined up, no shoes allowed inside the home?!!
Nice, right?! Makes sense.

Well, not that I have alot of visitors
Ever...........
but I am truly considering that
cell phones be treated similarly to that
Of the whole shoes Øff rule.

IN real time I would like to sit & Visit
to be in the now.
I am finding that it's more and more difficult
for some to be without the phone in hand....
checking one thing or another....
it;s one thing to be waiting for an important call~

But come ON>
you know who you are
or maybe you don;'t!

I ask~
have you observed your behavior...
have you questioned your inner needs
to check and recheck
the phone......

to converse with others far away
while in company with those in the presence of the now?

Just wondering...
Why is the phone such a priority
where social media is concerned.
And to those that NEED it,
similar to an addiction......

it's that I wonder.......
 If the inner awareness
of behaviors has occurred
Then .......
perhaps this is acceptable?


like shoes in a house
some want you to remove the shoes before
entering
and some don"t mind......


FOOD FOR THOUGHT>>>>>>>>>

nosuchthingasdead.....

dad i see you as owls
as birds
as wings growing thru my spine
so many birds this spring
so allowed
so a loud
no veils
ur not dead
im not blind
i see you all the time
no such thing as dead
dead to time
thats all