kidon bauman

I always think about this day on this day.... where I was..... what happened, what day it was on august 2, I could look it up saturday? but being with dad during the summer , every day felt like a saturday! 10 am or maybe 9 am? we were woken up by the phone ringing. My dad answered an woke me up and I believe it was Kidon's grandma that told me- she promptly hung up, the silence , there was nothing more to say. Kidon had taken that leap into the vast universe he would talk to me about always, He showed me the stars, constellations hH taught me about numerical symbolism and I would listen to his heart beating when he let me rest my head on his chest. He was my first "serious" kiss my first up the shirt experience. He told me once that I had been raped my an alien>?>????? and at the age of 11, that word was a violation in an of itself. He actually seemed to be in a weird trance when he said me an my grandmother were both raped by Aliens.... I was kind of mad at him for awhile over that, but he claimed he didn't realize he had said it. Perhaps he was in a Trance? Kidon was my Greenwhich Skate Partner . We skated backwards on ALL the slow songs. We were skate partners. He was such a good skater... he would always ask me, at first ! was like who is this guy and then I noticed a few weekends in a row, the skate rink felt lighter then usual. Found out from our mutual skate friend.... the skate guard Michael , that there was a new skate rink called The Roxy. West 18th st. It was enormous! an I do remember the very first time I entered, it was a monster space, big enough to house godzilla and sure enough the very first guy I saw was KIDON skating fast and free with his skate wings wrapped around the top of his boot/ankles I loved that guy, we were the cutest couple of all time! I thought I would marry him once, but we did stay friends , ups an downs... We went to see alot of movies together, Kramer Vs. Kramer up on 82nd and second ave? always held hands, Kidon was teaching his little brother Beau, Spanish. Kidon , to me, was ahead of his time. He was a special person. There was something very different about him. And when we were together it felt right an We always got alot of attention, for being such a good fit? It was a special feeling all the way around 360 degrees. I was a creep one year, I fell for one of his buddies Adam Sobel, and acted like a snob. I acted like I didn't know Kidon for a bit, but after I realized he didn't even realize I was missing,,,, hahahha ... he had other girlfriends.... How self centered I could be!! We always kept in touch. To think at 11 I was head over heals. To realize he would be gone at the age of 16, seems insane. My step mom at the time knew the devastation cancer caused as it stole her mother, so when we first found out Kidon was so sick from a "tumor", Debbie was the first person to understand how fatal the diagnosis was. I didn't know what a tumor was. And he battled for 3 years, sat in trees, taught himself to windsurf in front of their home in South Hold Ny. The Telescope he had was the biggest thing I ever saw, it was on a base with wheels. He was looking out into where he came from , I know it, I just know he was extremely rare creature. One summer we took him to the original lake house. He would spend a super extra boring long time standing at the edge of the dock, determined to show me how he was moving the stick in the water, what is that called telekinesis?!!! He knew he could do it, it just took time_ time I wanted him to myself. Meanwhile, he did not want to stop playing stick ball in the streets to come with me an my family/ he was such an all around MAVERICK ...for his age he was entirely special. Somehow Kidon's grandma found me in Cambridge, Mass.- always with dad in the month of august! To let me know that he had left us. I was devastated. I never forgot / I never will. Love you always... think of you often. xoox