'I don't like anybody."

It's been awhile since I felt the need to follow thru an enter a thought here, I have thought this alot. As a matter of fact, my father shared this same sentiment often throughout my youth. "Don't answer the phone!" "Don't invite anyone over." "I don't like him." I often feel like this type of thought is based in a biochemical imbalance. Perhaps it is a vitamin D deficiency or maybe even low iron. I have been anemic most of my life & I have been a loner most of my life too. When I was diagnosed with Graves Disease awhile back, it was a passing wonder if these things are interconnected. I day dream about socialites- being one- putting on parties- entertaining the masses. You have to have friends first. It makes me laugh. I find people to be extraordinaryly mEAN; to one another- OR just IN GENERAL.... Maybe I need to get a better attitude- or get out alittle- the thing is "I don't Care." It's safer to be alone- easier. Maybe I am lazy or just maybe I'm awkward, that's ok- I like me.